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At night I prayed my favorite prayer of late: Lord, help me to live independently of people's judgment, only before You, with You and through You.

"Help me, Lord, to live only by Your will." What does this mean? It means, first of all, that I am a man who can only think within the limits of space and time, unwittingly imagining the invisible Principle that gives life to everything, otherwise it cannot be, secondly, that I want nothing else or that more than anything I want to unite with this Principle, that I want to remove everything that prevents this union.

In me is the principle of all life. I know this not because I have studied the world, but because I feel the whole world, I live through the whole world, only I live through the whole world, and I feel it being aware that I am limited by space and time. Me, within the limits of my body, I feel clear, others, less clear, but even less clear the people separated from me by time and space, but I don't limit myself to knowing that they exist, I feel them. Animals feel less clearly, and inanimate objects still less. But all this I not only know, but also feel through that single principle which gave life to the whole world.

To rise to the point where you can see yourself. That's all.

What we call reality is a lifelong dream from which we gradually awaken in old age (awaken to be aware of a truer reality) and fully awaken through death.

When you talk to a man, he doesn't have to see that you love him, but you have to feel the real love. (It's very important.)

For the first time I acutely feel how random this world is. Why do I, who am so clear, simple, thoughtful, good, live in this messed up, complicated, crazy, bad world? Why?

Yes, we have to learn to love like you learn to play the violin. But what can we do if everything about that man seems disgusting to us, and he is also full of himself? We are tempted to despise him, and that would be contrary to love. Should we avoid it? Yes, but we must be ready to love him. And for this we need: 1) to carefully investigate whether the cause of our disgust is something personal, an insult to pride or something similar; 2) not to remember or think about him anything unkind.

What will be after death is not given to us to know. But what is good, we can and do know.

What is natural is that civilized people cover their bodies, especially women, leaving only what bears the seal of spirituality, the face, exposed. The baring of the body is now an indication of the fall. It should be the same for men.

I would like to pray only when I am in a good state of mind, with an open heart and ready to pray. And I try to pray: help me to be with You, to fulfill Your work, to defeat all the evil in me. But I think about things I don't need and I realize that I have nothing more to ask for, that I have been given everything I can ask for and I have everything. I can only say thank you.

True religion is first and foremost the pursuit of religion.

To think that we can live without error, without sin, is a great and dangerous error.

We are given one thing, which no one can take away from us, the good of love. Enough to love and everything becomes joy: the sky, the trees, the people, even yourself. And we look for good everywhere, not only in love. This pursuit of good in riches, power, glory, exclusive love not only does not bring good, it certainly lacks it.

How funny it is to imagine that matter is the clearest thing and the foundation of everything, when in fact matter is only a means of communication of the spiritual principle itself, from which emanated everything that is separate (that's what I called it at the beginning ). I should add that matter is a means of communication of the spiritual principle itself (from which emanated all that is separate) only in tandem with movement.

Just as there is no clear separation between dreaming and waking, so there is no separation between the thoughtful and the mindless life. A greater rapprochement between dream and wakefulness and between thoughtful and mindless life is achieved by the more or less sudden awakening of consciousness, therefore moral effort is possible.

The man who does not live for himself, but for the fulfillment of God's law, apart from the visible consequences of his good work, also causes infinitely important consequences that he does not see. Just like the bee that, collecting honey for its fellows, pollinates the plants that are needed not only by its own species, but also by thousands of other species.

Walking, I pluck some lovely flowers and throw them away. There are so many. So it is with the wonderful spiritual flowers of life. We don't value them precisely because there are so many of them.

Three prayers for every hour: 1) I want to live only for You and before You, 2) to live now, in the present, through love and 3) thank you for everything I did not deserve and am not worthy to have received. I thought of these prayers as I walked through the woods, lost my way, and became afraid. And I remembered my prayers. Yes, I am with You, and now I think only that I want to be with You, I am glad and thankful that I lost my way - and immediately I felt good.

Separate beings are conscious of their separation through what appears to us as body, matter, which is inconceivable outside of space and motion, outside of time.

How strange that people are ashamed of their filth, of cowardice, of a lower rank, but they are not ashamed of anger, but enjoy it, they absorb it to increase it, seeing in it something good.

What an amazing thing, we understand least what we know best, or we know best what we do not understand at all - our soul and God.

You can be disappointed in faith. Furthermore, beliefs can be opposed to each other. It is true, however, that they manifest much more visibly than consciousness; instead beliefs are precarious and contradictory, and consciousness is one and unchanging.

For the first time I clearly understood the importance of humility for life, for freedom, its joy.

Do not expect that, when you are struck on one cheek and offer the other, the one who strikes you will come to his senses, stop beating and understand the meaning of his deed. No, on the contrary, he will think and say: good that I beat him, it is clear that he feels guilty and sees that I am superior to him. But I know that regardless, it's best, for you and for everyone, to turn the other cheek when you're hit. This is "perfect joy". Just make the gesture. And then you will be able to give thanks even for what seems like trouble.

I must thank God for the gentleness with which he punished the sins of my youth, and the main sin is my sexual impurity in marriage with a righteous girl. That's right, you scumbag whore. You can only be thankful for the mildness of the punishment. It is easier to bear the punishment when you know why it was given to you.

How easy it is to take revenge by deed or word and how hard it is to forgive, but what joy if you succeed. We must strive.

The faith of men is but prejudice. People prefer faith to conscience, because the former is more determined and easier, as determined and easy as the observance of a custom and quickly turns into a habit, but faith itself is unstable, unstable and does not lead to the evolution of the spiritual life . It is always immovable and fiery, it provokes the desire of people to communicate, and it cannot be otherwise, since it is based on the common opinion and the more people share it, the more determined it is. Faith is a worldly thing, a comfortable condition for carnal life. The consciousness of God belongs to the soul, it is an indispensable condition for a wise, good life. Faith is always stationary *, consciousness is always in motion. For the faithful, the movement of life unfolds in the corporeal realm, for those who have consciousness, in the spiritual realm.

You wonder how to understand a word or another from the Gospels, Revelation or the Bible, finding in these words something either contradictory, or unclear, or even absurd. To this uncertainty I answer: you must read the Gospel and all the books known as Holy Scripture and analyze their contents just as we analyze the contents of all the books we read, and therefore if you come across something contradictory, unclear or absurd, do not look for explanations, but move on, giving importance and meaning only to those things that correspond to common sense and especially to your conscience. Only if you have this attitude towards the so-called Holy Scripture, reading it and especially the Gospel can be useful.

Science is the nursing home or rather the realm of success for the mob, and it is open to the most intellectually and morally obtuse of men. In dealing with science, a man may not be aware of what he is doing, counting beetles or enumerating books and transcribing from them what corresponds to a chosen subject, he may not think at all or invent some theory in that dead and useless field, and to be fully convinced that he is doing the most important job in the world.